Ghareba (24)

Trust issues in our marriage will eventually destroy it. how can i trust him! i feel that i dont know him anymore! illy sawah mu shwayya .. wel muskla ena maybayen eb 3aina , and when I ask him laish he cheated ygooi "MADRE ELSHE6AN GA9 3ALAY"! aah .. he's not honest, I know sometimes the truth hurts, but hiding it only makes it worse, he treats me right only when he's doing something wrong! even though qarar enah ra7 yetghayer .. ra7 ashek! it will probably be tough to trust him again..my pregnancy was wayed mut3eb .. o hal salfa khalatni karha kelshay .. if i wasnt pregnant chan radet bait ahalii .. i hated the fact that i am tired o jesmi ra7 yekhtereb 3ashan wa7ed mayestahal .. taghayart ,, sert ka2eba .. 7azena .. mag3edi momel .. ra7at el ebtesama men wayhy .. kela saktaa mali khelg wala shay ! few weeks later 6ala3 esmi bel jareda "wathefa fe wezara min elwzarat" .. re7t .. sheft el mokan .. mo nafs ma ana aby bas a7san men el ga3da bel baitt .. malal o qamta .. o elwzara yakhthon wa7da 7amel 3adey i was 3 months pregnant .. JUNE 2007 .. 3ogob mashtaghalt eb sbo3 7amad safar cause 3enda finals .. kint 7a6a eb bali "aked he'll cheat on me" bel6agag! shasawe ya3ny .. alla yahdeeh ..

kan wayed ydeg ytesharah .. lani makent as2al 3anna kether awal .. cuz mali khelga .. wala le khelg sotaa .. aby arta7 menah shway .. eldawam kan boring ,, nothing to do bel first week , 7ata maktab makan 3endi .. ba3den laman 3a6oni maktab sar el wath3 shwayya a7san .. 3endi net ,, kint a7es eni ray7a internet cafe mo dawam ,, min adesh len a6la3 wana emjabla el net .. ba3den shway shway bedet at3araf 3ala elli mawjodenn ,, hamad rad min maser .. kan esteqbali 7agga bared .. and he said " a7es hal marra mawalahtay 3alay" i smiled .. ee sij ,, mawalaht 3aleh! weird ! a7es mako masha3er tejaha .. ba6 chabdee.. so one day we had a fight
"ya3ny sheno elwa7ed mayghale6 getlich asef o taghayart o sert zain maybayen eb3ainech"

"embala ybayen .. bas khalas ma7es eni agdar atheq fek!"

"ya3ni shtabeni asawee SHTABENI ASAWE!"

"latsawe shay o raja2an lat9arekh tara mali khelg"

"OOH BEL6AGAG!" mmm .. maynon! el nejra kanat wayed a6wal men chethy bas ana khte9art'ha .. on july re7t maw3edii 3end el doctora .. i was 4 months pregnant .. o kent 7adi aby a3aref feni bnaya wela walad .. bas mabayan .. tgol el 7abel el sere bain el ryool! ana kint 7asa ena feni bint .. after 2 weeks min hal maw3ed re7t mustashfa el hadi .. kan ba6ni wayed y3awerni .. i went alone ..
"mafe shay 7abebty ,, everything is normal alhamdulella .. do u know whats ur babys sex?"

"not yet"

"baby girl .. see" bnaya ? wakhtyy .. sheft el screan bas mafahamt shay! "i'll print it for u" wayed estanast enha ebnaya o 7aset ena 7amad mara7 yestanas wayed so hal shay wanasni zyada! can u blieve this ! .. re7t 7ag umi wel kashra men hni le hnaak .. "Yummaaaa tawa re7t el 6abeeb o galatli sheno ebba6ni"

"zain zain , ha bnaya wela sbay?"

"hach shofay el sonar yemken t3arfen?"

"ashof .. we sheno hatha thalma hehe"

"ee madre gelt yemken t3arfen hehe .. shetewaqe3ain?"

"mmmmm madre elli eye min alla 7ayah alla bas chanzain bnaya"

"eeeeeeee bnayaaa"

"SIJJJ .. *tears* el7amdella el7amdella ya7elo elbecher le 9arat bnaya wallaa" *kisses

"hehehe ee a7es cute"

"wanasaaa 7ag el nefanef wel shbabeee9"

"hahahah , yumma .. et'hagen 7amad ebyestanas wela ytheg khelga"

"waihh ! etha mastanas ma3enda salfa ma3alech mena"

"mm .. mara7 agola .. laman aro7 7ag doctorty agola eye ma3ay o as2alha ya3ny cheni lel7en madre .."

"ee a7san ba3ad"

2 Weeks later .. August .. kint bel shahar el khames .. ra7 weyay to the doctor laman dashena she said "enshalla hal marra ybayen .. ashoof .. mmmm .. mmm ..."

7amad kan ykhez el screen o ana kent akheza , since i know sheno feni kent aby ashof radat fe3la .. "mmm .. ya7leelhaa .. Bnayaa"

He had the biggest smile on his face "el7amdella" he seemed happy .. rekabna el sayara .. "dalya .. latgolen 7ag a7ad"

"laish?"

"bas a7san , akhaf 3aleha min el 3ain"

"baih shda3wa ! sheno ya3ny magol 7ag ahali?"

"la 3ade golay 7ag betkum bas baje ahalech mala da3e yadron"

"aha ok!"

"mo 3an bas la2anna ahalna ykheshon fa 7atan ana bakhesh"

"inzain kefkum .. bas lazem agol 7ag khaltyy"

6ab3an kel my family DARAW ,, lani fethe7a o 3ade 3ende agol bas kent agolhum jbal 7amad sawaw ro7kum matadroon .. when i told his mother kanat radat fe3elha barda she said "zain el7amdela" bedon eye contact o g3edat t7e6 sala6a .. staghrabt shal brood! so i told hamad o shsawa ! thani yoom 3al ghada he told her! o el kel kan ga3ed

"yuma , dalya tgol a7es ena umik mo mestansa lana feni bnaya" aby mawqef yfashel akthar men chethy! i blushed!

"laa bel 3aks ana a7eb el banatt o min 3ogob 7amad o okhoh kent aby banat bas alla marezagni wel7amdela 3ala kel 7al o entay shayfa ena khawaty aghlab thereyat'hum sbayan bel 3aks a7na n7eb el banat o nabi banatt o a7san ena ma7ad yadre .." min el feshela sara7a mathakar sheno radet 3aleha !.. ya7lelha she didnt ask me about ANYTHING .. kent astaghreb bas a7san .. el weird thing ena fe nas min ahala kelesh mo meyana ma3ay .. o malhum 7ag yes2elon .. yeg3edon ysa2loni sheno fech bnaya wela sbay .. le el sades kint ared madre bas ba3den 7amad galli "golelhum 7amad mayertha agol" so kint agolhum chethy.. and wain betsawen esteqbalich o kint ared "madre lel7en masheft" bas i was already emqarera eb royal 7ayat .. o maskena mama galatli ena she'll pay for everything .. awal shay marethet i want him to pay ba3den galatli ra7 az3al etha makhaleteni.. so i said ok ,, bas estaghrabt ena 7amad retha kelesh matwaqa3t .. at the end mama 7ayaty she paid for the hospital , my bed cover , hdom el esteqbal , el giveaways , sweet and chocolate .. EVERYTHING .. o ohwa maga6 shay! weird weeeirdd! ..

October 2007 .. 7amad qarar ysafer ma3a rab3a! "dam eni emyame3 flos o umich qarerat enha betekafal eb kelshay 3ayal basafer USA ma3a rab3e shahar 11"

"min sejek!"

"ee laish ana thayeg khelge menzeman mastanast! o enta lo tegderet tsafren chan safarna!"

"aah ! ok"

"shda3wa dalooy tara mayza3el"

"ra7 akon bel thamin 7amad! bala sar shay!"

"la enshalla mako ela elkhair ra7 ared gabel latdeshen el tase3"

GHAREB!!!

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Love u ALL o sorry 6awalt 3alekum ;*