Wednesday, 21 October 2009
Listen , Carefully!
Monday, 12 October 2009
Ghareba (24)
kan wayed ydeg ytesharah .. lani makent as2al 3anna kether awal .. cuz mali khelga .. wala le khelg sotaa .. aby arta7 menah shway .. eldawam kan boring ,, nothing to do bel first week , 7ata maktab makan 3endi .. ba3den laman 3a6oni maktab sar el wath3 shwayya a7san .. 3endi net ,, kint a7es eni ray7a internet cafe mo dawam ,, min adesh len a6la3 wana emjabla el net .. ba3den shway shway bedet at3araf 3ala elli mawjodenn ,, hamad rad min maser .. kan esteqbali 7agga bared .. and he said " a7es hal marra mawalahtay 3alay" i smiled .. ee sij ,, mawalaht 3aleh! weird ! a7es mako masha3er tejaha .. ba6 chabdee.. so one day we had a fight
"ya3ny sheno elwa7ed mayghale6 getlich asef o taghayart o sert zain maybayen eb3ainech"
"embala ybayen .. bas khalas ma7es eni agdar atheq fek!"
"ya3ni shtabeni asawee SHTABENI ASAWE!"
"latsawe shay o raja2an lat9arekh tara mali khelg"
"OOH BEL6AGAG!" mmm .. maynon! el nejra kanat wayed a6wal men chethy bas ana khte9art'ha .. on july re7t maw3edii 3end el doctora .. i was 4 months pregnant .. o kent 7adi aby a3aref feni bnaya wela walad .. bas mabayan .. tgol el 7abel el sere bain el ryool! ana kint 7asa ena feni bint .. after 2 weeks min hal maw3ed re7t mustashfa el hadi .. kan ba6ni wayed y3awerni .. i went alone ..
"mafe shay 7abebty ,, everything is normal alhamdulella .. do u know whats ur babys sex?"
"not yet"
"baby girl .. see" bnaya ? wakhtyy .. sheft el screan bas mafahamt shay! "i'll print it for u" wayed estanast enha ebnaya o 7aset ena 7amad mara7 yestanas wayed so hal shay wanasni zyada! can u blieve this ! .. re7t 7ag umi wel kashra men hni le hnaak .. "Yummaaaa tawa re7t el 6abeeb o galatli sheno ebba6ni"
"zain zain , ha bnaya wela sbay?"
"hach shofay el sonar yemken t3arfen?"
"ashof .. we sheno hatha thalma hehe"
"ee madre gelt yemken t3arfen hehe .. shetewaqe3ain?"
"mmmmm madre elli eye min alla 7ayah alla bas chanzain bnaya"
"eeeeeeee bnayaaa"
"SIJJJ .. *tears* el7amdella el7amdella ya7elo elbecher le 9arat bnaya wallaa" *kisses
"hehehe ee a7es cute"
"wanasaaa 7ag el nefanef wel shbabeee9"
"hahahah , yumma .. et'hagen 7amad ebyestanas wela ytheg khelga"
"waihh ! etha mastanas ma3enda salfa ma3alech mena"
"mm .. mara7 agola .. laman aro7 7ag doctorty agola eye ma3ay o as2alha ya3ny cheni lel7en madre .."
"ee a7san ba3ad"
2 Weeks later .. August .. kint bel shahar el khames .. ra7 weyay to the doctor laman dashena she said "enshalla hal marra ybayen .. ashoof .. mmmm .. mmm ..."
7amad kan ykhez el screen o ana kent akheza , since i know sheno feni kent aby ashof radat fe3la .. "mmm .. ya7leelhaa .. Bnayaa"
He had the biggest smile on his face "el7amdella" he seemed happy .. rekabna el sayara .. "dalya .. latgolen 7ag a7ad"
"laish?"
"bas a7san , akhaf 3aleha min el 3ain"
"baih shda3wa ! sheno ya3ny magol 7ag ahali?"
"la 3ade golay 7ag betkum bas baje ahalech mala da3e yadron"
"aha ok!"
"mo 3an bas la2anna ahalna ykheshon fa 7atan ana bakhesh"
"inzain kefkum .. bas lazem agol 7ag khaltyy"
6ab3an kel my family DARAW ,, lani fethe7a o 3ade 3ende agol bas kent agolhum jbal 7amad sawaw ro7kum matadroon .. when i told his mother kanat radat fe3elha barda she said "zain el7amdela" bedon eye contact o g3edat t7e6 sala6a .. staghrabt shal brood! so i told hamad o shsawa ! thani yoom 3al ghada he told her! o el kel kan ga3ed
"yuma , dalya tgol a7es ena umik mo mestansa lana feni bnaya" aby mawqef yfashel akthar men chethy! i blushed!
"laa bel 3aks ana a7eb el banatt o min 3ogob 7amad o okhoh kent aby banat bas alla marezagni wel7amdela 3ala kel 7al o entay shayfa ena khawaty aghlab thereyat'hum sbayan bel 3aks a7na n7eb el banat o nabi banatt o a7san ena ma7ad yadre .." min el feshela sara7a mathakar sheno radet 3aleha !.. ya7lelha she didnt ask me about ANYTHING .. kent astaghreb bas a7san .. el weird thing ena fe nas min ahala kelesh mo meyana ma3ay .. o malhum 7ag yes2elon .. yeg3edon ysa2loni sheno fech bnaya wela sbay .. le el sades kint ared madre bas ba3den 7amad galli "golelhum 7amad mayertha agol" so kint agolhum chethy.. and wain betsawen esteqbalich o kint ared "madre lel7en masheft" bas i was already emqarera eb royal 7ayat .. o maskena mama galatli ena she'll pay for everything .. awal shay marethet i want him to pay ba3den galatli ra7 az3al etha makhaleteni.. so i said ok ,, bas estaghrabt ena 7amad retha kelesh matwaqa3t .. at the end mama 7ayaty she paid for the hospital , my bed cover , hdom el esteqbal , el giveaways , sweet and chocolate .. EVERYTHING .. o ohwa maga6 shay! weird weeeirdd! ..
October 2007 .. 7amad qarar ysafer ma3a rab3a! "dam eni emyame3 flos o umich qarerat enha betekafal eb kelshay 3ayal basafer USA ma3a rab3e shahar 11"
"min sejek!"
"ee laish ana thayeg khelge menzeman mastanast! o enta lo tegderet tsafren chan safarna!"
"aah ! ok"
"shda3wa dalooy tara mayza3el"
"ra7 akon bel thamin 7amad! bala sar shay!"
"la enshalla mako ela elkhair ra7 ared gabel latdeshen el tase3"
GHAREB!!!
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Love u ALL o sorry 6awalt 3alekum ;*
Sunday, 11 October 2009
Ghareba (23)
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After few days , beda el morning sickness EEW.. I feel nausea all the time .. matroo7 KELESH KELESH! .. mali khelg shay .. la a6la3 la akel wala asma3 wala atkalam .. bas mensad7a 7ata ma6ale3 el tv! .. o foog hatha million marra adesh el bathroom ! o khasatan belail :~( .. 7amad kan wayed zain o nafseyta shwaya metghayra bas makan yqader eni ta3bana .. 3abala atdala3 when i was sooooo tired!
"ana umi kanat tet3ab akthar menech o 3ade kanat emjablatna o te6bakh"
"lo3a 3an lo3a tafreg ana lo3ty mo rathya tfech o a7es jesmi metkaser!"
"shako tafreg entay mara wehya mara! o jesmich metkaser men el ga3da gomay ta7arekay!"
"..."
"entay wayed redeya ana ma7eb morty tkon chethy"
"7amad ta3bana ya3ni sheno tabe asawe!"
"3an el dala3"
"ok ana atdala3" *sobs* .. i was so 7assasa .. o sij sij siiijjjj kent wayed ta3bana o a7es ma7ad 7as bel ta3ab elli fenii .. 7amad makan yeg3ad bel bait .. kela bel dewaneya .. o ana ga3da bro7i bel dar .. 7ashatni qamta o thejaa! .. akher shahar khamsa 7amad said
"dalya tara bakheth el labtopich ma3ay lana mabi ashbek min computer eldawam"
"ekhtha" .. kan laman yred o ydesh el sheqaysolif ma3a wa7da ygol enah ma3ah bel dawam .. ana 7taret awal shay bas ya3ni m9akhat almost every day .. o the7ek o ghashmara o ana emshayen el nafs 3alay! .. so gumt min warah at3abath eb mobilah!
o yoom min el ayam kan bel bathroom ydakhen .. leget bel sent msgs
TO: 858
M q8y****@hotmail.com
zasdf
I had big (!) on my face! sheno hatha ba3ad! GOD.. plz no! baghet amotttt men el7araa ,,sawet forward 7ag el msg 3ala mobiley .. o mesa7ta men his sent msgs! how could he! laman 6ala3 min elbathroom i asked him: "7amad"
"hala 7abebty"
"dawamkum mafeh sheghel?'
"embala laish?"
"la2anna kha9 a7essa karaf fa mestaghreba enik ga3ed takheth el labtop"
"ee karaf bas marat 3endena faragh .. laish tes2elen"
"3ade mujarad so2al"
"mmm .. bas aked fe shay min wara so2alich!"
"laish enta ga3ed etsawe shay ghala6?" el-chathab yeftha7 nafsa eb nafsa!
"hahaha ay shay sa7 ana gayelech a7os eb google! bas estaghrabt awal mara tes2elen"
"la 3adey chethy ma3a el sowalef.."
"sowalfech nafs wayhech"
"mashkor" fake smile
"za3altay sa7 ! ayshay dalya"
"laish az3al mako shay yza3el"
"we3 nafseytech el khaysa! ana dash anam!" masken! so obvious ena warah mo9eba .. i wait him tell he go to dowaneya o achayek shsalfay hal e mail!! around 6 he went out em3a9eb cheni ana el ghal6ana .. o ana a7es eni kent a7tereg min dakhli!! .. i signed in .. wela shashooof! .. 60 coantacts bel msn KELHUM BANAT .. bel recieved folder leget sorat cham ebnaya! o fe 2 dazenla el cv malhum! ya3ny sheno beshaghelhum ma3ah eb nafs el mukan! ambaih!!!.. eb emaila .. 3araft ena 3enda hi5! maskhara over 200 girls eb his account .. also Facebook .. i was really hurt .. really .. wayed becheet .. jara7nii .. laish ysawe chethy ana shnage9ni... sheno 3ajba eb hal mojtama3 el wasekh! ana sama7ta o 3adet'ha awal mara eb mazajy lani sadagt ena mara7 y3edha .. bas this time .. sheno 3ethra .. am pregnant :( 7aram 3aleh 7arnii wayed .. sara7a kheft 3ala my baby min el 7arrah! ra7 awajha .. o i'll leave him .. bs i'll wait tell tomorrow 3ashan afaker 3adel...
yomha magedart anam bas saweet roo7i nayma .. laman nadani 7egarta .. elkhayen :( ga3adt abchy 6ool el lail i was so me7taraah! elfayer .. sawetli fake hotmail account o sawetla add .. 3ashan a3aref el seb7 ay 7aza yashbek .. o sawetli fake hi5 sawet add 7ag random people o ohwa menhum o sawet accept min 3enda ,,
The next day .. elsa3a 9 i went to mama's how lana bait'hum mafeh net .. ghayar el profile info bel hi5 .. o can on msn .. i went back home na6reta ysharef ..
"salaaamm.. dalooya shfeech chenech ta3bana"
"ee men el lo3a" sad face
after lunch .. "7amad wain el e-go bawarek shay"
"shenoo?"
ta3al shoof" i typed his email bel MSN window .. o 3ala6ool 6la3at el sora elli ga3ed yestakhdemha .. "sheno hatha?" 7aset enah metwater o 3yona 6la3at .. "ana ase2lik sheno hatha?"
"aaaa .. eeeeeee hatha e mail refeje tethakart!"
"email refejek shesawe eb labtopy?"
"la2anna ohwa gali asawela may3aref!"
"aha .. ya3ny ment kateb el password?"
"agolich email refeje ana sh3arafni bel password!" 3a6eta nathra "o rasech ma3arfa!" .. "ooh! o rasi ba3ad?" then i typed the password o sawet sign in .. khema6 el labtop menni ... i was trying to get it back bas he pushed me and said "dalya wakhray 3anni la a3awrech" .. ana kheft 3ala 3umri so tana7t eb mukani! then start crying ! "eli matabene ashofa ana shefta .. o tethakar enik 7alaft chethb .. o hali dazetni 3ashanhum khal yenf3oonik!" i walked away "dalya la7tha" 7egarta o 6ala3t jan6ety o kent age6 aghrathy ga6 dakhelha "entay shga3da etsawen"
"ana ray7a bait ahali watmana wregty to9alni!"
"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yanetay sa7!"
"EE YANET ENTA KHALET FENI 3AGEL"
"E7TARMAY NAFSECH O LAT3ALEN SOTICH"
"esket weli y3afek enta khalet feha e7teram" ga3ad y6ale3ni wana a7e6 aghrathy .. i took my car key "heey enta wain 3abalech betro7en!"
"plz wakher" faj2a he was on his knees huging my leg! "asef wala asef walal bagolich shay alla ykhalech latro7en"
"3ogob sheno 7amad khalas enta kharabt kelshay" *sobs*
"dalya alla ykhalech sam7eenii walla a7ebech o madre shlon sawet chethy entay 7abebty o um 3yalii o morty o kelshay ana magdar a3esh bedonich?"
"3AYAL LAISH ETSAWE CHETHY!! ANA EMGA9RA!!"
"walla mo emga9ra .. walla mo entay el sebaab .. menee ana .. ana madre laish sawet chethy"
he huged me and cried so hard .. o ana ba3ad .. i was in pain :( .. "walla el 3athem mara7 a3edha walla ana ghayart el pass o khaleta kharabe6 o ma7efathta aqsem bellah o mara7 tshofen mion elyoom o raye7 ella elli yserech"
"7amad! magdar atheq fek!"
"walla o a7leflech 3al qor2an eni ma3edha o etha dashet el hi5 aw facebook again ta7remen 3allay .. walla ma3edha"
"heey 7aram tgool chethyyyyyy"
"walla mara7 a3edha wallaaaa sam7eni dalya walla a7ebech"
Sama7ta! bas min 3ogob hal salfa 3esht eb shak .. theba7ni!
Thursday, 1 October 2009
Ghareba (22)
I was lying down on sofa staring at the roof when he opened the door .. i stood up with awe look in my face .. AMBAIH .. 7araam obviously he was crying :(
"ge3day" ga3adt .. o ohwa ga3ad 3ala el sofa elli yami .. nazal rasa o 7a6 eda 3ala his cheeks .. kesar kha6ri o 7aset bel thanb .. so nazalt rase too.. "shfeha relech?" there was a bruise
"min el jan6a eli 7ethaft'ha 3ala reli"
"SIJ!"
"ee sij" *sobs*
"laish tabcheen"
"thayeg khelgy 3alli 9ar .. mo el qasd eni achatheb 3alek .. bas walla ana makalamta walla el 3athem"
"hatha shay sar men gabil lat3arfeni .. maykhalef nensa el mawtho3 o nefta7 9af7a yededa o manyeb 6are hal yoom"
"akeed maykhalif" i huged him min galb .. that's a relief "asfa plz latez3al 3alay"
"ana ma6ala3t min 6oori ela la2ani a7ebech .. ana ba3ad asef" .. "dalya etha a7ad shaf el ratha shbetgolenla?"
"eni 6e7t .. o mara7 albes shay ykhaleha etbayen lana we3 sarat banafsejeya tkhare3"
3ogob hal salfa .. kelshay rad 6abe3e .. means hamad yro7 el dewaneya almost kelyoom o ana aro7 3end mama .. gamat atfah el tawafeh tkhaleh ynarfez .. yred men el dawam emshayen el nafs .. o yet7al6am min eyee len ye6la3 .. ena ohma mayqadron o madre sheno bla bla blaah ..
week later ...
"ayy ayy ayyyyy 7amaaaddddd ta3aaaalll" ba6ni kan wayed y3awerni o metkawda bel frash chene rebyanaa .. masken yali mekhtere3
"DALYA SHFEECH SHFEECH"
"shway shway latekhtere3 .. *sobs* baa- ba6niii .. mugadra at7amaal"
"goomai ebser3a khal awadech el 6abeeb"
badalna ebser3a o re7na el mostashfa .. ne6arna nes sa3a 3ala ma ya doorii then el doctora sawatli sonar o galat
"you are not pregnant .."
".." shako pregnancy bel mawtho3!
"mafe shay habebtyy hada tabweed"
"sheno mafe shay *sobs* ba6ni y3awerni wayed"
"some times it hurts .. ana yakteb pain killer ok"
khazet 7amad and whispered "hathy shakelha mat3aref shay" min kether ma ana met3awra kent em3a9ba o wedi azne6ha! "7abebty ehya doctora wet3aref"
"fe mara 3ada yet2akhar?"
"ee last month"
"kam yoom?"
"mmm maybe 10"
"mafe hamel?"
"NO .. doctora ba6ni"
"dalya look here" kan fe mojassam ra7em "bowayda shwaya 7ajem keber .. laman yetla3 shway y3awer ok 7abebe"
"is it normal?"
"yes its a good time to have a baby" my eyes popped out of my head ambaih waq7a! he looked at me with evil smile in his face .. he was so happy hehe! rekabna el sayara
"shfech em3a9ba"
"la2anha qalelat adab"
"hahahahah!"
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Days later .. 7amad kan tawa rad min el dawam .. "dalloy shofay sheno yebtlich"
"hatha shenow??"
"internet 7ag labtopich 3ashan matmelen elseb7"
"allaaaah mashkoor 7abebeee"
"yebay el labtop khanasawela install"
kan wanasaaaa .. coz bet'hum mafeh wireless net .. el seb7 ana nayma ! bas sar 3ende shay alha feeh laman ye6la3 wag3ad broo7i bel bait .. so 3ogob cham yoom he said .. "dalya dam entay nayma 6ool el nahar o ana dawami elsheghel 7ada khafef bakheth'ha el seb7 oki?"
"eeee 7adda ok shda3wa! aslan mastakhdema el seb7 hehe"
"ee walla bedal laytheg khelge bel dawam agazerha sites"
o sij 3ogob ma gam yakheth el net ma3ah .. a7es nafseta taghayerat o 7ada sar 6ayeb o khosh wa7ed!..
Days later ... May, my period 3 days met2akhra , i went to boots to buy home pregnancy test , sharait 2, awal yoom 6ala3li negative , 7ata thani yoom .. o ba6ni kan wayed y3awerni o mabi agol 7ag a7ad .. so i called my new best friend shayokh she's newly married o el wa7eda elli mag6a3at 3ani laman tzawajt..
"hiii"
"shayookh lel7en mayatli bamot ba6ni thabe7niiii"
"mmm .. shofay ana ma3aref ebhal sowalef bas chena etha sawetay blood test a7san"
"way laa2 ebra la22 7ade mabii"
"ehya shkether met2akhra"
"3 daysss .. ana 3ade bas kela min el doctora shakekatni tsadgen .. thek elmara tgooli laman eta2akhar 3alech lazem tyeen o tgool yemken kent 7amel o 6a7 wana amdre! kalba sa7"
"ee ma3alech menha .. ne6ray shwarach heh"..
"inzain sem3ene fat7en mall yeded esma el manshar khanro7 enshofa"
"oook"
re7na hnak .. baih b3eeeeed .. o shakla bayekh o aghlab el ma7alat emsakra ..
"SHAYOKH EMSHAY BOOTS" re7na o sharet 4 home pregnency tests..!
"yal khebla hehehe laish kel hathaa"
"7ag kelyoom wa7ed .. len etyene hehe .. 3ad etsadgen 7amad shaf wa7ed ana ga6eta tekremen bel zbala"
"7elfaaay ! o shgal"
"gali ebnafs sheina o em3a9eb "hatha sheno" geltla chan ygool "eeeeh!"
"tara raylich mo 9a7ey"
"yeah i know hehe"
so .. day after day I was doing this home test .. o laman an6er el result ambaih a7es galbi yerga3 madre laish .. bel 7th day 6ala3li POSITIVE .. I loughed so hard .. I almost got tears min el far7aa .... I am so excited .. extremly happy .. sh3oor ghareeeeb .. madre laish gumt arketh bel sheqa tedoodaht madre shasaweeee .. hamad was out with his friends o kena metnajren .. o athker garet bel net ena marat el home test ykoon ghala6 so i decided to call mom ..
toooooooot ... tooooottt
"Alo"
"yummaah" sad voice lezom el tamweh
"shfech mama"
"3adtey met2akhra sarlaha sboo3 o aby asawe ta7leel dam"
"zaaain el 7amdela"
"yuma 7aram 3alech ba6ni y3awerniii"
"ee 3adee 3adeee yalla ta3alay ana na6retech"
when i arrived leget'ha na6ratni bel 7oosh .. 7aram ommyy .. she opened my door and said
"enshalla khair .. nezlay khal asoog"
"hehe shda3wa yuma agdar asoog"
"akeeeedddd?? haaa fech 7ail"
"hahahaha am not pregnant yet!" way zoogha :* .. rkebat el sayara
"ro7ay el salmeeya fe mokhtabar hnak .. 7alat feh laman kent 7amel feech"
"baih hehe! b3eed yumma"
"maykhalef khanro7 hnak mako a7ad kela fathy"
"oki"
:( .. qazoni ebraa .. o galolena nan6er barrah.. ya el.nurse so gumt o 3a6ani elwrega o gali "positive" .. ana eltefat 3ala umi maleget'ha .. i looked down wela 7abebty sajda sajdat shokor .. o gamat lamatni o g3edat tabchii :'') "el7amdela alf mabrook 7abebty" (way khnegatni el3abra wana akteb) "hehe mashkora yuma laish tabcheenn bas tara abchyy"
"smoo3 elfaraaaa7 ba9eer yaddaa .. 3ad al7en mo ebkaifech ana basoog"
"oki hehe" elwath3 kan wayed sa3ed
"mama meta betgoleen 7ag 7amad??"
"laman yred el bait"
"Hhhhhhhhhh *shhegat* 7aram 3aleeech degay 3aleeeh al7eeen bachreeeh"
"ok hehe"
i called .. shalah o kan emnafes shway
"na3aam"
"hala 7amad weenik" yamma z3aaajj
"weenii .. bel nadi ya3ny wenii"
"mashghool?"
"shfech?" he was worried
"ammmmm .. ana 7amel"
"goolay wallaaaa ... la7tha la7tha" he was walking away from his friends "dallooy goolii walla"
"walla heheh"
"shdaraach!"
"tawni emsawya ta7leel dam"
"wain ma3a mino"
"mama"
"ooofffffffff 7ade mestaneeessssss weenich?"
"raden el bait al7en bel da2eri el thalethh"
"oki bye"
"haa shgaal"
"ygool 7ada mestanes hehe" wesalna bait ahali wela ohwa wagef barra o 3yoona ghargana bel dmoo3 .. nezalt o he huged me belshare3 o kan yabchiii .. "mabrook 7abeebbee bas lemha dakhel hehe"
"el7amdella el7amdellah" he huged mama 2 and said "3ameety matsadgen shkether mestanes el 7amdela alla ebyarzegni o ba9er obo!"
and finaly that was a happy moment .. thanks god.