Wednesday 6 January 2010

Falling apart..

What do u do when evry thing seems to be a big lie?
cheating husband .. etha ebtendam laish u cheat bel asas ? WHY WHY ?
laish u break my heart then u ask me to forgive u ?
o foog kel hatha mako la eslob wala mo3amala ?
why its easy to cheat on me ? and u want me to forgive u every time ? ana ma7es? if u treated me right maybe kint agdar asame7


what do u do when u feel lonely ?
i have so many friends .. bas 6la3aw ,, fake friends ? i guess
they talk behind my back .. yetshameton .. i told them everything about my meserable life .. yetshameton .. when i needed them .. khaloni o ygolon malna khelg qatha o ghlega ? and that i am a drama queen! duh.. lies every where .. they are lying about every thing .. my story was intesting to them lana they didn't know anything about me .. ba3den faj2a malaw .. o ra7aw! why?


what do u do when u trust NO BODY?
kelshay agola ga3ed yengal 7ag other persons o hal other persons ygola 7ag others .. why ? i trusted u laish chethy ? kelman yesta3be6 .. kelman labes qena3 .. i don't know what to do .. i can't talk .. i can't breath .. i can't live ..

min el qamta eli ebgalbi i can't sleep .. o etha nemt elqamta etga3edni men el noom! 7arga eb 9adre morathya troo7 ..
i wish i never existed..

el7amdela 3ala kel 7al .. sorry guys muga3da akteb sarli mudda .. a7es mogadra .. mafeni 7ail asawe shay ..

i love u
-dalya

8 comments:

  1. dalooy! awalan aham shay 6amanteeeena 3alaich gumna n7ateech! :s

    7abeebty 3awartay galbii.. 9adgeeni wala insan bhal dinya yeswa ili ga3da tsaweena bnafsech.. 7abeebty malich ela rabbech.. igray quran wed3ay rabech uhu el wa7eed eli yegdar esheel il ham wel qamta mn galbich.. wed3ay 7ag raylech 3asallah yahdeeh.. u need to sit down and talk to him.. itwath7eenla ina mu 6abee3y ili ga3d e9eeer wena intay mara7 tegdereen testemereen itha tam 3ala hal 7aal.. give him one last chance.. dont take any major decision ela wentay mestekheera rabbech..

    you should never trust anyone bhadenya ghair ahalich.. believe me!! nader ma telgain 9adeeqa wefeya il kil idawer ma9la7ta elyoum.. meta ma9arlich mishkila aw shay golay 7ag umich ihi akthar wa7da bhadinya tdawer ma9la7tich.. oo 7abeebty we are all here for u ikhthay ra7tich bel 7achy oo golay kil ili b9adrech latkhesheen shay just get it out here! hatha laish 3endich blog use it 3ashan tkhafefeen il thigil ili feech.. w i promise u i personally will be with u lain yenza7 el ham ili feech ;*

    o mithil ma giltay el7imdillaah 3ala kil 7aaal .. love u ;**

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  2. hathy el sabe3 ayaat el munajeyat maloot el theeq:

    بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
    " قل لن يصيبنا الا ما كتب الله لنا هو مولنا وعلى الله فليتوكل المؤمنون "


    بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم " وان يمسسك الله بضرفلا كاشف له الا هو وان يردك بخير فلا راد لفضله يصيب به من يشاء من عباده وهو الغفور الرحيم "


    بسم لله الرحمن الرحيم " وما من دابة فى الارض الا على الله رزقها ويعلم مستقرها ومستودعها كل فى كتب مبين "


    بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم "انى توكلت على الله ربى وربكم ما من دابة الا هو اخذ بناصيتها ان ربى على صراط مستقيم "


    بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم " وكأين من دابة لا تحمل رزقها الله يرزقها واياكم وهو السميع العليم "


    بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم " ما يفتح الله للناس من رحمة فلا ممسك لها وما يمسك فلا مرسل له من بعده وهو العزيز الحكيم "


    بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم " ولئن سألتهم من خلق السموات والارض ليقولن الله قل افرأيتم ما تدعون من دون الله ان ارادانى الله بضرهل هن كشفت ضره او ارادنى برحمة هل هن ممسكت رحمته قل حسبى الله عليه يتوكل المتوكلون "

    oo hathy ad3eyat el ham wel 7izn:

    * اللهم إنى عبدك ( أمتك ) وأبن عبدك وأبن أمتك ناصيتى بيدك ، ماضاً فى حكمك ، عدل فى قضاؤك أسألك بكل أسم هو لك سميت به نفسك ، أو أنزلته فى كتابك ، أو علمته أحداً من خلقك ، أو أستأثرت به فى علم الغيب عندك أن تجعل القرآن العظيم ربيع قلبى ونور صدرى وجلاء حزنى وذهاب همى .

    * اللهم إنى أعوذ بك من الهم والحزن وأعوذ بك من العجز والكسل وأعوذ بك من الجبن والبخل وأعوذ بك من غلبة الدين وقهر الرجال .

    oo Allah el shaafy inshalah ;**

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  3. 7abeeebtiii dalooya ;** wainich walahnaa 3alaich ;( .. ya 7abeebti hathy idinya kilwa7ed fil dinya 3inda ham .. bss 9adgeeeny raby ma yinsa 3abda oo akeed ma ra7 yinsach khaly imanich balla guwy .. oo try 2 forgive ur husband bss 3ashan i3yalkum oo bil nihaya ohwa il khasran bss fahmeeh ina bss mo li3ba ina everytime he cheats oo ba3dain irid shino yahil ?! ;/ oo 9adgeeny dalooya never trust anyone ghair ur family lina ma7ad i7ibich wikhaf 3alaich kithirhum .. oo rij3ay 7ag rabich oo igray quran oo akeeed hamich ra7 ikhuf .. 3awartay galby wallaaah ;( winshallaa allaaah ifarij 3anich hamich 7abeebti ;** wit3eesheen a7la 7ayaat ;** ayshaaay tabeena we will always be here 4 u kitbaaay ily tabeeena ib ur blog wi7na ra7 insa3dich ;** LOVE YOU ;*

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  4. I am so sorry to hear that hun.. walla 3awartay galby w I can't relate to you akeed bs walla I know how it feel to trust people that were not meant to be trusted.. t3awithay min ilblees tara allah y7ibich cuz hatha kila ajer 7agich.. intay 7awlay tgrain quran w tgaribay min rabich 3shan hal theega w ilghliga troo7 w allah ysahil 3alaich inshala.. we are all here for you ok?

    :*

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  5. 7abeebty malich shighil ba7ad o etha baghaitay a7ad tara rabbich mawjood. o 9adgeeni mara7 it7iseen ibsa3ada akbar mn lama tettajhain 7ag Allah sub7anah. tara hal denya fanya, mara7 yubga mnha shay fa khalay emanich ib Allah guweeo uhwa in return ib yakheth 7agich; in ma kan bel denya bekoon bel akhra bethn Allah :*
    after i read ur blog 7asait ina i know u so well ledarajt ina ur blog became a part of my everyday life. seeing u at this stage in life ethayeg khilgy. ana maketbat hal msg out of pitty, bel3aks, ketabta leana i care.
    anyways, i hope u feel beter o know that u have us to lean on. even tho we're behind a screen o we havent physically met, but know one thing, we can in fact provide moral support :*
    lotsa love
    xx

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  6. Hello dalya how are you ? It's been ages since you have posted something, I know it's been 4 years you haven't posted anything but your story got me so attached and I just want to know the end of this road. Isstill read your story every once in a while because it inspires me a lot with so many reasons ♥ if your reading this please reply :( wish you all the best in your life, take care and always know that God is with u. Thank you so much
    -sara

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