Tuesday 8 June 2010
Sunday 14 March 2010
HeY Guys :D
Helloooooooooooooooooo .. miiiisssss uu soooo muuuchhh ;** .. sooorryyy 3ala hal ghaayba bas walla marait eb throooof wayed sa3ba haddat 7aily kent ma akel wala atkalam o bas anam o maqmota o bas abchy o we3 wee3 .. now am soo much better .. madre etha bakamel akteb my story wela la2 cuz i really hate it :/ .. i asked him for divorce .. mama and baba wagfen ma3ay el7amdella ,, now ana eb bait ahali waiting him to divorce me :/ huh ..
a7eebkum wayed ;**
a7eebkum wayed ;**
Wednesday 6 January 2010
Falling apart..
What do u do when evry thing seems to be a big lie?
cheating husband .. etha ebtendam laish u cheat bel asas ? WHY WHY ?
laish u break my heart then u ask me to forgive u ?
o foog kel hatha mako la eslob wala mo3amala ?
why its easy to cheat on me ? and u want me to forgive u every time ? ana ma7es? if u treated me right maybe kint agdar asame7
what do u do when u feel lonely ?
i have so many friends .. bas 6la3aw ,, fake friends ? i guess
they talk behind my back .. yetshameton .. i told them everything about my meserable life .. yetshameton .. when i needed them .. khaloni o ygolon malna khelg qatha o ghlega ? and that i am a drama queen! duh.. lies every where .. they are lying about every thing .. my story was intesting to them lana they didn't know anything about me .. ba3den faj2a malaw .. o ra7aw! why?
what do u do when u trust NO BODY?
kelshay agola ga3ed yengal 7ag other persons o hal other persons ygola 7ag others .. why ? i trusted u laish chethy ? kelman yesta3be6 .. kelman labes qena3 .. i don't know what to do .. i can't talk .. i can't breath .. i can't live ..
min el qamta eli ebgalbi i can't sleep .. o etha nemt elqamta etga3edni men el noom! 7arga eb 9adre morathya troo7 ..
i wish i never existed..
el7amdela 3ala kel 7al .. sorry guys muga3da akteb sarli mudda .. a7es mogadra .. mafeni 7ail asawe shay ..
i love u
-dalya
cheating husband .. etha ebtendam laish u cheat bel asas ? WHY WHY ?
laish u break my heart then u ask me to forgive u ?
o foog kel hatha mako la eslob wala mo3amala ?
why its easy to cheat on me ? and u want me to forgive u every time ? ana ma7es? if u treated me right maybe kint agdar asame7
what do u do when u feel lonely ?
i have so many friends .. bas 6la3aw ,, fake friends ? i guess
they talk behind my back .. yetshameton .. i told them everything about my meserable life .. yetshameton .. when i needed them .. khaloni o ygolon malna khelg qatha o ghlega ? and that i am a drama queen! duh.. lies every where .. they are lying about every thing .. my story was intesting to them lana they didn't know anything about me .. ba3den faj2a malaw .. o ra7aw! why?
what do u do when u trust NO BODY?
kelshay agola ga3ed yengal 7ag other persons o hal other persons ygola 7ag others .. why ? i trusted u laish chethy ? kelman yesta3be6 .. kelman labes qena3 .. i don't know what to do .. i can't talk .. i can't breath .. i can't live ..
min el qamta eli ebgalbi i can't sleep .. o etha nemt elqamta etga3edni men el noom! 7arga eb 9adre morathya troo7 ..
i wish i never existed..
el7amdela 3ala kel 7al .. sorry guys muga3da akteb sarli mudda .. a7es mogadra .. mafeni 7ail asawe shay ..
i love u
-dalya
Tuesday 17 November 2009
Ghareba (26)
When i saw her face for the first time i had the most amazing feeling .. a7la sh3oor 7aseta eb 7ayaty! She was so different from what i imagine.. so cute and tiny.
When I looked at her eyes for the first time and kept her in my arms i had such a new feeling. Nobody told me how is it like to love your own baby, what exactly a mother feels. I didn't know how different this new type of love can be .
I was alone .. kelman rad el bait ynam .. Manori was sleeping .. I know in that day, she became everything in the world to me. I was so tired but excited .. so i didn't sleep ,, ga3da a6ale3ha shlon nayma .. i love her!
2nd and 3rd day was the Esteqbal .. kan wayed za7ma .. wayeed .. wanasa bas ta3ab.. bel 4th day i went to mama's house .. wel mas2oleya bedat! i decided to breastfeed manori .. matakhayalt that breastfeeding is very painful and extremely uncomfortable! .. o lazem ag3ad kel sa3tain arathe3ha .. ta3ab sij ta3ab .. bel nfas 7amad makan wayed yzorna .. yoom eyye o yoom la2 .. wetha ya mayeg3ad akthar men sa3ten.. wayed adeg 3aleh alga waiting .. y9arefni a7es mayaby ysolif ma3ay .. wayed hal shay athar 3ala nafseytyy.. and i was so tired lanni manam 3adel .. o etha nemt atefazaz kela a7alem ena manora enbagat .. aw 6a7at min el frash .. also i wanted to lose the weight i gained o ebnafs el wagt kent kela yo3anaa .. mama helps alot o kanat kela tzefni lani ma artha a7ad yamsek munani .. wayed kent akhaf 3aleha eb shakel mo 6abe3e ,, kent mahwosa fehaa .. a6wal moda nemt'ha ehya 4 hours! ba3den ag3ad lanna my breast y3awerni min el 7aleb! bekhte9ar gatrat el nfas .. really WE3! i was a happy sad mama!
14 Days .. 7anait 3ala 7amad eyele 3ogob el dawam .. "dalya tadren ana wara el dawam sayer anam"
"ee nam 3endena 3adey!"
"la la fashlaaa"
"laish fashla 7amad 3afya ta3al walla walhana 3alek"
"maykhalef 7abebe laman ag3ad amurech"
i started crying "enta kela kashet feni wet9arefni o mateg3ad ela shwayya o al7en atrajak etye etnam 3endena murathy laish" sobs
"7ayaty latabchen walla fashla shegolon ahalich"
"sheno shegolon enta raylii!"
"inzain bas latabchen bayye bayeee" i didnt ask him to come bas la2anna i miss him .. 3ashan aby a3aref shelsalfa! .. taghadena then dashena el dar .. 7amad enseda7 3ala el frash to take his nap .. o ana kint arathe3 munani len namat .. eltefatt 3ala 7amad .. he was sleeping 2 .. sooooo .. re7t akhatht his mobile .. went to the bathroom .. o ga3adt at3abath! .. ebhal yoom i called him arounf 2 o kan 3enda waiting .. so .. kan fe raqam ga3ed ysolif ma3ah 20 minutes bas bedon esim .. o dag 3ala hal raqam 10 elseb7 .. elyoom eli gabla 12.30 belail !! o 8.00 belail ... 4 el3a9er .. 2 eltheher .. hathela el awqat eli kanaw bel log! fe arqam wayed bas kanaw emsayeven eb esim shabab i know them hamads friends .. bas hal raqam .. madree .. fakart adeg wasma3 elsoot .. bas etha 6ala3 wa7ed! male khelg mashakel .. shasawe ya rabbi ,, khal ashoof el inbox msgs .. mako shay .. sent items .. legeta dazlaha
bel3aks 3ade laish tgolen chethy entay la emthaygatni wala shay degay meta mataben ..
o msg thani sadgeni ana wayed wayed mestanes eni ga3ed akhdemech 3ade yuba layredech ela elsanich
what the hell was that?! hamad! ambaih he's cheeting on me ???? i remember this number .. mara i was 5 months pregnant o kena bel shaleh .. he just came from his friends chalet at 12 midnight .. was smoking bel toilet .. o ana kent mensad7a .. wesala msg min hal raqam "Wainik?" ana sheft el msg .. o staghrabt ena raqam bedon esim .. o sheft el calls kan tawa emsakra min that number .. o i asked him who was that (bas mageltla eny garet el msg geltla wesalik msg wal7en el sa3a 12.30 meno dazlik?) o he said refeja tawa kan ma3ah tawa .. 7efatht el raqam yomha .. bas sadagta .. hatha nafs el raqam! ykalemha min wana 7amil! aaahh galbi :( .. akhatht el raqam o khasheta .. radet el mobile mokana .. o sawet ro7i nayma!
laman ga3ad 3abala ana nayma .. 6ala3 men baitna o madre wain ra7 ! .. i was in shock! how could he ,, seriously HOW COULD HE! .. i cried so hard that day o umi 6ab3an shafatni .. i told her what i saw .. i told her about the chalet incident .. "la7awla wala qowata ella bellah .. hal walad madre shsalfeta"
kent atshahag min el bachi .. i was so tired so so tired o makan y3amelni 3adel bel nfas .. laish ysawe chethy? ana ekteshaft wana bel khames .. min meta y3arefha ? sheno 3elaqat'hum ! laish chethy laish.. he really broke my heart! mama ba3ad wayed enkesar galbha 3alay "dalya alla ykhalech lattekadaren tara kel hal za3al yro7 bel 7alem o ydesh munani's system she1s a baby mata7amal el za3al"
"ya3ny shtabene asawe mama kelshay sawet sama7t o ta7amalt o ta3abt o mayqader wala sawa shay 7ag esteqbali u did everything o foog hatha ykhooni ? walla mastahal walla"
she huged me tight and said "walla matestahlen bas elshakwa lalla latabchen 7abebty el reyayel chlab lat3awren galbich .. 3a6eni elraqam ana a6ale3lich bayanat 3annah"
"sij ? tegderen?"
"eeh 3a6eeniyah .. o layadre 7amad enich daretay ebshay"
"oki" rte7t shway eni ra7 a3aref mino hathy .. o kent ga3da 3ala a39abi yomha .. 2 hourse later i got theis information .. Esemha nouf el flani .. 34 years old .. single .. teshteghel eb wezarat elkhareja aw eldakhela mathker .. 3enwan bet'hum .. raqamha el madani ..
"shbetsawen?"
"madre .. bas 34! akbar menah eb 10 years! wee3"
mama magalat shay .. bas sure makan 3ajebha .. ana wayed tghayart 3ala 7amad .. staghrabt mena .. o men tasarofata el sebyaneya .. i felt un loved .. 7aset eb naq9 .. ohwa shga3ed ydawer barra ? el self esteem wel nafseya was really down! 3 days later 7amad kan y7en yaby y3aref shfeeni .. wana madre shagoola .. so ohwa men nafsa gal ena yaby yetghada wenam 3endena .. ga3ad y7en shfech shfech .. i told him eny ta3bana men mjabal el baby .. laman nam .. i took his his mobile again o ga3adt ashoof again .. the number was saved under the name "Nweef" o kan emsolif ma3aha gabel la ydesh elbait!! sij mayeste7e 3ala wayha .. i felt angry .. so angryy .. wee3 7aqeer .. akhatht munani o re7t ag3ad bel 9ala .. laman ga3ad 3a6eta nafs shena .. sij makan le khelga .. o uhwa kan mestaghreb .. "shfech dalya 3asa mashar"
"ta3bana"
"kel ma aye ta3bana ta3banaa tara la3at chabde"
"!!!" i was shoked ,, didn't say a word!
"elsharha 3alay eli yaay .. ma3a elsalama"
"alla weyak!" .. no comment .. after this .. kan ydeg wana a7gera .. wagol 7ag mama etha daglich golela nayma .. ensan tafeh sakhef mayfaker ela ebnafsa .. agola ta3bana y3a9eb ! 3abala emjabal baby le3eb yahal .. fog hal ta3ab 7arakata elbaykha eli tkhale elwa7ed yet3ab zyada .. so after 2 days of ignoring him .. he called mama o galaha ena yaby y6ale3ni ..
"ambaih yuma shlon a6la3 wana bel arbe3en! bagele ba3ad sbo3en"
"maykhalef bas betemashon bel sayara"
"la mabi .. mabi ashof reg3at wayha"
"laa hatha raylech latgolen 3ana chethy"
"etdaf3en 3anna *sobs*"
"laaa .. latabcheen .. ana qasde marada lich o entay um benta aked y7ebech o sharech"
"lo sharene maykhonii"
"walla madre shagolich .. kaifech" ga3ad y7en 3ala umi 7anna ela yabe ymasheni ,, so akher shay i said oki .. defadet 3adel .. kan wayed bard shahar 1 2008.. rekabt elsayara wana mali khilg a6ale3 wayha .. a7esa waqe7! kint sakta 6ool el 6erej .. kan ysolif o yeth7ak bro7a .. o ana eb3alam thani .. shlon yegdar ymathel wesawe roo7a 6abe3e! .. so eb nes 6al3at'na ran mobilah! ga6et wayhe bel screen "Nweef" calling .. sawa mute o mashala..
"shela 3adee"
"la ba3den adegla"
"walla 3ade sakten muga3den nsolif"
"maykhalef akalma ba3den" makent aby a7en 3ashan mayshek ebshay.. re7na sharena sandwitches o 3a9er .. while eating nweef called again .. o 7aseta twatar shway .. o ana wayed wayeeedd 3a9abt! "7amad aby ared elbait sadre beda yentefekh we3awerni"
"shda3wa entay mo shaf6a tawa 7ag manoor"
"embala bas madre shfe sar fe 7aleb .. plz aby ared"
"7asafa kent bamashech shway 3al khalej bas yalla enshalla el yayat akthar .."
wa7na eb6erejna le el bait nweef called again .. "7amad sheelaa .. ethaher yabek tharori"
"3ade yan6er sheno 6ale3 ma3a murty ana"
"mmm .. meno hatha nweef?"
"hatha nawaf okho 3baid lesgher"
"cham 3umra?"
"laish tes2elen?"
"wayeed y7en!"
"la laish tes2elen?"
"ana eli laish as2al ? enta eli laish matshela tawa dag 3baid o kalamta! ba3den tawni adre ena 3enda okho sgher"
"ee mo kilshay lazem tadren 3anna o ana ared 3ala eli abeh weli mabi ared 3aleh mani rad 3aleh"
"deg aby asma3 sota"
"hahahaha 9a7ya entay shal 7arakat"
"7amad ga3da akalmik jad .. deg 3aleh aby asma3 sota!"
"mani dag"
"laish khayef?"
"o laish akhaf! shaka feni dalya?"
"la mo shakka .. ana met2akda .. hathy nouf el flani .. o 3umrha 34 o sakna eb **** o teshteghel eb *** o sarlik sh'hoor tkalemna .. fe shay ba3ad taby t3arfa?"
SILENCEEEEEEEEE
When I looked at her eyes for the first time and kept her in my arms i had such a new feeling. Nobody told me how is it like to love your own baby, what exactly a mother feels. I didn't know how different this new type of love can be .
I was alone .. kelman rad el bait ynam .. Manori was sleeping .. I know in that day, she became everything in the world to me. I was so tired but excited .. so i didn't sleep ,, ga3da a6ale3ha shlon nayma .. i love her!
2nd and 3rd day was the Esteqbal .. kan wayed za7ma .. wayeed .. wanasa bas ta3ab.. bel 4th day i went to mama's house .. wel mas2oleya bedat! i decided to breastfeed manori .. matakhayalt that breastfeeding is very painful and extremely uncomfortable! .. o lazem ag3ad kel sa3tain arathe3ha .. ta3ab sij ta3ab .. bel nfas 7amad makan wayed yzorna .. yoom eyye o yoom la2 .. wetha ya mayeg3ad akthar men sa3ten.. wayed adeg 3aleh alga waiting .. y9arefni a7es mayaby ysolif ma3ay .. wayed hal shay athar 3ala nafseytyy.. and i was so tired lanni manam 3adel .. o etha nemt atefazaz kela a7alem ena manora enbagat .. aw 6a7at min el frash .. also i wanted to lose the weight i gained o ebnafs el wagt kent kela yo3anaa .. mama helps alot o kanat kela tzefni lani ma artha a7ad yamsek munani .. wayed kent akhaf 3aleha eb shakel mo 6abe3e ,, kent mahwosa fehaa .. a6wal moda nemt'ha ehya 4 hours! ba3den ag3ad lanna my breast y3awerni min el 7aleb! bekhte9ar gatrat el nfas .. really WE3! i was a happy sad mama!
14 Days .. 7anait 3ala 7amad eyele 3ogob el dawam .. "dalya tadren ana wara el dawam sayer anam"
"ee nam 3endena 3adey!"
"la la fashlaaa"
"laish fashla 7amad 3afya ta3al walla walhana 3alek"
"maykhalef 7abebe laman ag3ad amurech"
i started crying "enta kela kashet feni wet9arefni o mateg3ad ela shwayya o al7en atrajak etye etnam 3endena murathy laish" sobs
"7ayaty latabchen walla fashla shegolon ahalich"
"sheno shegolon enta raylii!"
"inzain bas latabchen bayye bayeee" i didnt ask him to come bas la2anna i miss him .. 3ashan aby a3aref shelsalfa! .. taghadena then dashena el dar .. 7amad enseda7 3ala el frash to take his nap .. o ana kint arathe3 munani len namat .. eltefatt 3ala 7amad .. he was sleeping 2 .. sooooo .. re7t akhatht his mobile .. went to the bathroom .. o ga3adt at3abath! .. ebhal yoom i called him arounf 2 o kan 3enda waiting .. so .. kan fe raqam ga3ed ysolif ma3ah 20 minutes bas bedon esim .. o dag 3ala hal raqam 10 elseb7 .. elyoom eli gabla 12.30 belail !! o 8.00 belail ... 4 el3a9er .. 2 eltheher .. hathela el awqat eli kanaw bel log! fe arqam wayed bas kanaw emsayeven eb esim shabab i know them hamads friends .. bas hal raqam .. madree .. fakart adeg wasma3 elsoot .. bas etha 6ala3 wa7ed! male khelg mashakel .. shasawe ya rabbi ,, khal ashoof el inbox msgs .. mako shay .. sent items .. legeta dazlaha
bel3aks 3ade laish tgolen chethy entay la emthaygatni wala shay degay meta mataben ..
o msg thani sadgeni ana wayed wayed mestanes eni ga3ed akhdemech 3ade yuba layredech ela elsanich
what the hell was that?! hamad! ambaih he's cheeting on me ???? i remember this number .. mara i was 5 months pregnant o kena bel shaleh .. he just came from his friends chalet at 12 midnight .. was smoking bel toilet .. o ana kent mensad7a .. wesala msg min hal raqam "Wainik?" ana sheft el msg .. o staghrabt ena raqam bedon esim .. o sheft el calls kan tawa emsakra min that number .. o i asked him who was that (bas mageltla eny garet el msg geltla wesalik msg wal7en el sa3a 12.30 meno dazlik?) o he said refeja tawa kan ma3ah tawa .. 7efatht el raqam yomha .. bas sadagta .. hatha nafs el raqam! ykalemha min wana 7amil! aaahh galbi :( .. akhatht el raqam o khasheta .. radet el mobile mokana .. o sawet ro7i nayma!
laman ga3ad 3abala ana nayma .. 6ala3 men baitna o madre wain ra7 ! .. i was in shock! how could he ,, seriously HOW COULD HE! .. i cried so hard that day o umi 6ab3an shafatni .. i told her what i saw .. i told her about the chalet incident .. "la7awla wala qowata ella bellah .. hal walad madre shsalfeta"
kent atshahag min el bachi .. i was so tired so so tired o makan y3amelni 3adel bel nfas .. laish ysawe chethy? ana ekteshaft wana bel khames .. min meta y3arefha ? sheno 3elaqat'hum ! laish chethy laish.. he really broke my heart! mama ba3ad wayed enkesar galbha 3alay "dalya alla ykhalech lattekadaren tara kel hal za3al yro7 bel 7alem o ydesh munani's system she1s a baby mata7amal el za3al"
"ya3ny shtabene asawe mama kelshay sawet sama7t o ta7amalt o ta3abt o mayqader wala sawa shay 7ag esteqbali u did everything o foog hatha ykhooni ? walla mastahal walla"
she huged me tight and said "walla matestahlen bas elshakwa lalla latabchen 7abebty el reyayel chlab lat3awren galbich .. 3a6eni elraqam ana a6ale3lich bayanat 3annah"
"sij ? tegderen?"
"eeh 3a6eeniyah .. o layadre 7amad enich daretay ebshay"
"oki" rte7t shway eni ra7 a3aref mino hathy .. o kent ga3da 3ala a39abi yomha .. 2 hourse later i got theis information .. Esemha nouf el flani .. 34 years old .. single .. teshteghel eb wezarat elkhareja aw eldakhela mathker .. 3enwan bet'hum .. raqamha el madani ..
"shbetsawen?"
"madre .. bas 34! akbar menah eb 10 years! wee3"
mama magalat shay .. bas sure makan 3ajebha .. ana wayed tghayart 3ala 7amad .. staghrabt mena .. o men tasarofata el sebyaneya .. i felt un loved .. 7aset eb naq9 .. ohwa shga3ed ydawer barra ? el self esteem wel nafseya was really down! 3 days later 7amad kan y7en yaby y3aref shfeeni .. wana madre shagoola .. so ohwa men nafsa gal ena yaby yetghada wenam 3endena .. ga3ad y7en shfech shfech .. i told him eny ta3bana men mjabal el baby .. laman nam .. i took his his mobile again o ga3adt ashoof again .. the number was saved under the name "Nweef" o kan emsolif ma3aha gabel la ydesh elbait!! sij mayeste7e 3ala wayha .. i felt angry .. so angryy .. wee3 7aqeer .. akhatht munani o re7t ag3ad bel 9ala .. laman ga3ad 3a6eta nafs shena .. sij makan le khelga .. o uhwa kan mestaghreb .. "shfech dalya 3asa mashar"
"ta3bana"
"kel ma aye ta3bana ta3banaa tara la3at chabde"
"!!!" i was shoked ,, didn't say a word!
"elsharha 3alay eli yaay .. ma3a elsalama"
"alla weyak!" .. no comment .. after this .. kan ydeg wana a7gera .. wagol 7ag mama etha daglich golela nayma .. ensan tafeh sakhef mayfaker ela ebnafsa .. agola ta3bana y3a9eb ! 3abala emjabal baby le3eb yahal .. fog hal ta3ab 7arakata elbaykha eli tkhale elwa7ed yet3ab zyada .. so after 2 days of ignoring him .. he called mama o galaha ena yaby y6ale3ni ..
"ambaih yuma shlon a6la3 wana bel arbe3en! bagele ba3ad sbo3en"
"maykhalef bas betemashon bel sayara"
"la mabi .. mabi ashof reg3at wayha"
"laa hatha raylech latgolen 3ana chethy"
"etdaf3en 3anna *sobs*"
"laaa .. latabcheen .. ana qasde marada lich o entay um benta aked y7ebech o sharech"
"lo sharene maykhonii"
"walla madre shagolich .. kaifech" ga3ad y7en 3ala umi 7anna ela yabe ymasheni ,, so akher shay i said oki .. defadet 3adel .. kan wayed bard shahar 1 2008.. rekabt elsayara wana mali khilg a6ale3 wayha .. a7esa waqe7! kint sakta 6ool el 6erej .. kan ysolif o yeth7ak bro7a .. o ana eb3alam thani .. shlon yegdar ymathel wesawe roo7a 6abe3e! .. so eb nes 6al3at'na ran mobilah! ga6et wayhe bel screen "Nweef" calling .. sawa mute o mashala..
"shela 3adee"
"la ba3den adegla"
"walla 3ade sakten muga3den nsolif"
"maykhalef akalma ba3den" makent aby a7en 3ashan mayshek ebshay.. re7na sharena sandwitches o 3a9er .. while eating nweef called again .. o 7aseta twatar shway .. o ana wayed wayeeedd 3a9abt! "7amad aby ared elbait sadre beda yentefekh we3awerni"
"shda3wa entay mo shaf6a tawa 7ag manoor"
"embala bas madre shfe sar fe 7aleb .. plz aby ared"
"7asafa kent bamashech shway 3al khalej bas yalla enshalla el yayat akthar .."
wa7na eb6erejna le el bait nweef called again .. "7amad sheelaa .. ethaher yabek tharori"
"3ade yan6er sheno 6ale3 ma3a murty ana"
"mmm .. meno hatha nweef?"
"hatha nawaf okho 3baid lesgher"
"cham 3umra?"
"laish tes2elen?"
"wayeed y7en!"
"la laish tes2elen?"
"ana eli laish as2al ? enta eli laish matshela tawa dag 3baid o kalamta! ba3den tawni adre ena 3enda okho sgher"
"ee mo kilshay lazem tadren 3anna o ana ared 3ala eli abeh weli mabi ared 3aleh mani rad 3aleh"
"deg aby asma3 sota"
"hahahaha 9a7ya entay shal 7arakat"
"7amad ga3da akalmik jad .. deg 3aleh aby asma3 sota!"
"mani dag"
"laish khayef?"
"o laish akhaf! shaka feni dalya?"
"la mo shakka .. ana met2akda .. hathy nouf el flani .. o 3umrha 34 o sakna eb **** o teshteghel eb *** o sarlik sh'hoor tkalemna .. fe shay ba3ad taby t3arfa?"
SILENCEEEEEEEEE
Sunday 15 November 2009
Ghareba (25)
He went to USA with his friends ,, 7aset ena fe shay enkesar dakhli .. shloon yroo7 wekhalenii eb hal 7ala ? ta3bana .. alone .. dasha el-thamin .. o awal mara a7amil .. shal galb! 7aset enah may7ebnii .. kint akhaf anam broo7yy .. sij eni eb bait 7amola.. bas ga3da eb sheqa broo7ii .. scary! eb hal fatra i felt heavy .. el7arej theba7nii .. a7es am lonley .. i needed him .. anany 7amad anany! .. nes el thamin sert ma agdar amshy a7es eb 3awar mu sij! so kint akheth sick leave 7ag el dawam .. o ga3adt bait ahalii.. he came back o kan bagely days wadesh el tase3 .. wayed share ashya2 7ag our baby and for me also .. to be honest .. hal marra i missed him o i was so happy laman rad!
9 months ..12 days ..
"dalooy bacher ahali bero7on el bar 7ag khaley o ana baro7 ba3ad etyeen ma3ana wela malich khelg?"
"eee bayyee wanasaaa wala mara re7t el baarr"
"khosh 3ayal lebsay shay ydafeeech la2anna hnak wayed wayeeed bardd"
i was so excited .. cheni yahel bewadona el tarfeheya .. malet men ga3dat el bait wel sad7a .. aby aghayer jaw .. o mag3ad ahala ywanes.. so the other day .. tedafait 3adel o re7na el bar ..
"Mashalla el bar kebeeer"
"hahahahaha shrayech ya3ni a7na eb 9a7raa"
"eee la7atht hehehe"
"mashalla tawech tla7then .. fe6ena murty"
"hehe ee smela 3alayy"
"enshalla bas bente mate6la3 3alech"
"heeeeyy"
"hehe" elmokan wayed emratab o netheef .. ywaneess .. they welcomed us with open arms, very cordial and polite .. suwalef o wanasa .. wel 7elo fehum ena ga3den kelena mo fa9len el reyayel 3an el 7arem .. o sowalef el ryayel tfa6es min elthe7ek wayed mughamarat .. after that we ate lunch and it was super delicious .. ghefait shway o 3ogob maga3adt i went to hamad and told him "hamad .. 3afya latgool la2 .. aby arkab bunchie" with cute puppy eyes
"dalya shfech smela 3alech yanetay"
"alla ykhaleeek eb kha6ri ebkha6riii tara yser bel baby shay" ayshay dalya :P
"agool ta3awethay men ebles o deshay dakhel latkhaleni a3a9eb"
"shda3wa" *teary eyes* madait bozey o meshait .. gabel la adesh el khaima i heard him calling me "dalooy ta3alay" i gave him the sadest look "mabi"
"ta3alay barakbech ta3alaay bas ana asoog feech"
"HEYAAAAA"
"hehehe walla mo9a7ya .. yalla ta3alay magdar 3ala za3alech"
"7amad .. magdar ag3ad warak ba6ni shkobra maykafe khal asoog bro7yy"
"t3arfen?"
"3alemnii"
"walla enich ga9a 3alay yalla rekbay"
i tried to bas ambaih am so heavy magedart as3ad "hahaha ambaihhh shelneee hahahaha"
"hahaha lateth7ekeeen lat6e7eeen"
"baas baaasss magdar arkaab hahaha"
"zain ne6ray ayeblich selaam"
i was laughing so hard 3ala shakli le darajat ba6ni gam y3awerni ouch! ,, yab daray sghayer 3ashan arkab! GOD ! "AKHERANN" 3alamni shasawe .. easy .. meshait o ga3da asma3a ysarekh "shway shwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay" besmela! mamdani 7a6et sub3e 3al banzen! "DAlyaaa redaaayyy" 7egarta o ga3adt a7oos .. ambaaaaaaaaaaaih wanasaaa .. he was runnig after me masken .. bas marra bel 3umer i rally enjoyed my time! "baasss ogfaaayy"
"hahahaha shaklik mu sij wenta tarketh waray"
"nezlay nezlay sij mu kafo a7ad ya36ech wayh" he was so pissed off
"shda3wa! yalla nazelni" dashet el khaimaa .. faj2a 7aset thahriii wayed y3awerni wayeeeeeeeedd o wayhe n9efag so khalty munera asked me "dalya fech shay?"
"khalty thahri wayed y3awerni"
"kela men halli rekabteh ta3alay ensad7ay shway .. kelesh mala da3eey" ooh! kaifi .. enseda7t o refa3t rele 3ala makhadaa .. ouch ouch y3aweerrr .. aby ared el baittt .. ambaih la2 la22 AYY! i called hamad "aloo"
"hamad aby ared el bait"
"shfeech!"
"thahrii y3awerni .. mani gadra"
"yalla yalla kani yaay"
dashet el toilet 3ala ma eyeb el sayara .. sheno hatha? chena blood? ! OMG .. i called mom "MAMAAAA DAM DAM" i freaked out!
"SHENO DAM SHFECH!"
"fee dam wardii fe dam"
"nezal menech dam??"
"Eeee eeeeeeeeeeeeee"
"weeeh 3adeey .. yalla enshalla lech 3 ayam o tolden"
"ya3ny mara7 olad bel bar?"
"hahahahaha laaaaaaaaa mo kon fa yakoonn .. ana wala mara nezal 3alay dam bas eli a3arfa eli yanzel 3aleha dam ya3ny 7erwat el 3 ayam o tolad .. khafef wala wayed?"
"la 7ada khafeef"
"weeh 3adey bas reday el bait erta7ay lata7arekeenn derebalich 3ala 7afedtyy"
"ok" sakarta bas mate6amant .. i told hamad he freaked out 2! he told khalty and she said nafs el 7achi eli galeta umi ... after saying goodbyes to evryone ,i called my cousin 3ndaha babya 3umrha 1 year .. "hii anwaar" i asked her o galatli "3ade ana nezal 3alay shwayya khafeef o wegaf 3ogob sbo3 waladt"
"ya3ny aro7 el 6abeeb wela la2?"
"et7esen eb 6alg?"
"ana shdarani sheno 6algg .. thahri y3awerniiii"
"hehe yro7 weyye wela thabit?"
"la lazeg feni mayfech"
"mmmm .. enshalla mako shay call ur doctor mala da3e tro7en" i called doctorty o galat nafs el shay .. bas i wonder what is 6alg? eeff .. that night i couldn's sleep well .. thahri thabe7nii .. o kint awaswes kel shway achayek etha fe dam wela la2! Morning .. zad el.blood .. chena am having my period! bas 3awar el thahar ra7 .. "saba7 el khair shlonich elyoom?"
"el7amdela a7san bas wayed dam!"
"taben awadech el 6abeeb?"
"la mako shay y3awernii"
"mmmm.. Enzain ana baro7 el shaleh etyen ma3ay wela awadech 3end umich?"
"la la baye ma3ak"
"akhaf tet3ebeen"
"mat3ab bayye ma3ak .. khal abadel degega" .. wesalna bel salama .. makan feni shay bas el blood kan eb habal! .. temashait shway ma3a 7amad then ra7 shaleh rab3a o ana ga3adt ma3a 7amolty .. after ghada thahri shab 3alay again!! 3awar mu sijj.. i was calling hamad mayred so i called his father .. "3ami ga3da adeg 3ala 7amad mayred wana wayed ta3bana mat3aref raqam a7ad menrab3a?"
"yabnayty 7amad 6ale3 7adag .. ashof yemken a7a9la" laa2! muwagta .. enshalla mako shay! .. la2 la2 khalas mugadra at7amal! o ga3da atwatar weenah! aby ared aby areeeddd .. sarat 6 o ahal 7amad be7adron men shaleh .. "ha dalya etyen ma3ana wela tan6eren raylech"
"la khalty baye ma3akum wayed ta3bana" madre shlon ta7amalt el 6ereej .. kanat el sa3a chenha yoom kamill .. wedi abchy bas maska roo7e .. etha lel7en kel hal 3awar mo 6alg bante7er! awal mawesalt bab sheqete ga3adt abchyy .. after 15 minutes he called "ha 7abebe shfeeech"
"waineek waineeek" i was crying .. really in pain
"rad min el shaleh shfeechh"
"wayed ta3bana aby aro7 el 6abeeb al7eeeeeeen yamdek twadeni wela akhali umi twadenii"
"la ne6ray sheno umich twadech rob3 sa3a wana 3endech" awal ma sakart el telephone khalty dashat o shafatni abchii "shfeech dalyaa shelle y3awrech"
"khalty thahri manigadraaa!"
"yroo7 wered?"
"laa emchaleeebbb mugadra ag3ad 3ala 7ailyyy"
"yuma deshay seb7ay eb may 7aar 3ala ma eye 7amad .. etha zad 3alech ya3ny 6alg wetha ra7 ya3ni mako ela el 3afyaa"
fachait el may o ga3adt 3ala el arth .. mugadra ogaff ..seba7t bser3a o re7t badalt o ga3adt an6er raylyy .. "haa dalooyyy" awal mashefta i started crying "ta3bana ta3banaaa"
"yalla 5 degayeg asba7 wawadech" laaaaaaaa2 ! ba3ad 5 degayeg ! magdar!! sekat madre shagooolll ayy ayy :~( .. after 5 minutes he came out mo metsabe7 wala embadel o he said "haa lel7en taben tro7en el 6abeeb?"
"ENTAA MEN SEJEEK! TA3BANAAAAAAAAAA TA3BANAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAA 3ABALIK GA3DA ACHATHEEEEBBB ! ANA AL7EEN AWADE 3UMRIIIIIII WALA MATHALETEEEEKKKK" I WAS EXTERMLY TIRED AND ANGRY! YESTA3BE6
he huged me and said "ana bas kent bat2akad ena min sijech hal mara ta3bana"
"HAMAD LATYANEENEEE BETWADENE WELA LAAAAAAAAAAA2" am sure ena 3yoni 6la3at men lesrakh "yalla thuwani thuwaniii walla bawadech"
"BAAS ESKET O DESH BADEEELLLLL YALLAAAAAAAA"
khalty fachat el baab "shfekum shfekuum"
"khaltyy *sobs* ana *sobs* mugadra at7amal *sobs*"
"yalla yalla al7en enwadech .. 7amad yoma yalla ebser3aa .. dalya nashfay sha3rech"
"magdar magdaarr" .. rekabna el sayara o hamad called mom o galaha ena ray7en el mustashfa .. awal ma wesalna 21.00 sa3edoni foog o 3a6aw shay 3ala ba6ni 3ashan yshofon fe 6alg wela la2 .. 7a6aw el jehaz o ashof mom tsawe chay! "hach sherbay"
"sheno hatha?" "darseeen sherbeh zain" "sharabta kela eb 1 second! .. i can feel contractions while the nerse saying ena mako shay! how come! a7es eb shay ghareb ga3ed yser 7ag ba6niii! yat el doctora el monawba o sawatli ba79 3ashan tshof cham santy mafto7a! o kan da yoom esweed! Aaaaaaahhh y3awer 3ama eb 3ainhaaaaaaa dafshaaa "malik umal 7ate3mele eeih bel weladaa!"
"entay dafsha! shway shwaaayy!" mu3ajebha ba3ad! wagta tkhare3ni hathyy! 7amad 3a9ab o zafha o gal maby hathy tdesh 3ala morty .. wagtek enta el thanii lol! tgol eni mafto7a 2 santi .. "erga3e el beet o ta3ali bokra"
"walla ma at7arak min mokaniii .. ba6niiiiiiii a7es eb taqalo9aat" the nerse said "mako shay habebtyyy"
"SHENO MAKO SHAY! I CAN FEEL IT" yat eta2akad ena el jehaz rakeb 3adel .. 7a6at edha wela tshof el contractions raqamhum 3aleey! "oh my god u r right maybe something was wrong with the machine!" la walla ! ela entay mu7a6eta 3adel malat 3aleech!! "escuse me sir" khathat 7amad o 6la3aw barra .. "nurse ta3alaayyy whats wronggg" elyahel eb ba6ni wet7achi sir! ahh kent em3a9ba 7ade yomhaa .. "7abebty benazlonich ghorfat el 3amaleyat" mom said! yummah ! 3amaleyat! sound scary!!! ga3adt abchyy "khalas hawant mabi olad" *Sobs*
"mara7 t7esen eb shay alla ysahel 3alech kelna waladna" I was excited but scared. now am sure am in labor.. ghorfat el 3amaleyat kanat wayed 7elwa! chena ghurfa 3adeya .. feha sereer .. flat tv .. qanafat 7ag 5 persons .. bathroom .. kan 7amad mawjod ,, his mom , mamaty , khalaty (moms sisters) yaw bel 12.00 7adhum mekhtar3en .. i felt love .. after about three hours my contractions were only five minutes apart .. makent rathya akheth shay .. i was screaming min el 3awar o kent khafya cuz my doctor lel7en mayat o el doctora el munaweba el khaysa yat ba6at may el baby .. min kether masarakht 7amad mesak el kamam o 7a6a gha9eb 3ala wayhy! 3ogobha khedarttttt .. etha ya el 6alg agoom wetha ra7 anam .. bas kint a7es eb soot sada moz3ej etha a7ad tekalam aw ta7arak .. faj2a yali 6alg o i was screaming chan ashof my doctor .. "aaaaaaaa ... laish ta2akhartaayyy"
"heheh kani 7abebty mafech ela el 3afyaaa" "haa meste3eedaa?" she was smiling o ambeh 7adha 7anona .. bas mu wagt sowalef! "plzz 6al3ehaaaa BAMOOOTTT AAAAAAAA" faj2a yat el nurse o 7a6atli drip "wakhraaaaaaay aaaaaaaa"
"dalya shofeeneee .. 7awlay tdezeen"
"ma3areeefff shloooooooooonnnn aaaa bamoott 6al3oohaaaa" :"( 7aset eni ga3da amot sij! kint shway daykha o madre shga3ed yseer bas eli a3arfa eni so in pain o aby el baby ye6la3 .. kent mu3arfa asawe push .. i tried maybe 7 times or more ma6la3at el babya .. "dalyaaa .. el baby wayed ta3bana 3afya sa3deeneee push push" i pushed so hard o ken fe 2 nurses 7a6en edhum 3ala ba6ni o wdezona le ta7aat OUCH! faj2a nemt! then i heard my baby crying bas min el ta3ab magedart afech 3yonii .. i felt ena 7amad was crying .. huging .. kissing my forehead ..
Finaly .. baby monira was born!
9 months ..12 days ..
"dalooy bacher ahali bero7on el bar 7ag khaley o ana baro7 ba3ad etyeen ma3ana wela malich khelg?"
"eee bayyee wanasaaa wala mara re7t el baarr"
"khosh 3ayal lebsay shay ydafeeech la2anna hnak wayed wayeeed bardd"
i was so excited .. cheni yahel bewadona el tarfeheya .. malet men ga3dat el bait wel sad7a .. aby aghayer jaw .. o mag3ad ahala ywanes.. so the other day .. tedafait 3adel o re7na el bar ..
"Mashalla el bar kebeeer"
"hahahahaha shrayech ya3ni a7na eb 9a7raa"
"eee la7atht hehehe"
"mashalla tawech tla7then .. fe6ena murty"
"hehe ee smela 3alayy"
"enshalla bas bente mate6la3 3alech"
"heeeeyy"
"hehe" elmokan wayed emratab o netheef .. ywaneess .. they welcomed us with open arms, very cordial and polite .. suwalef o wanasa .. wel 7elo fehum ena ga3den kelena mo fa9len el reyayel 3an el 7arem .. o sowalef el ryayel tfa6es min elthe7ek wayed mughamarat .. after that we ate lunch and it was super delicious .. ghefait shway o 3ogob maga3adt i went to hamad and told him "hamad .. 3afya latgool la2 .. aby arkab bunchie" with cute puppy eyes
"dalya shfech smela 3alech yanetay"
"alla ykhaleeek eb kha6ri ebkha6riii tara yser bel baby shay" ayshay dalya :P
"agool ta3awethay men ebles o deshay dakhel latkhaleni a3a9eb"
"shda3wa" *teary eyes* madait bozey o meshait .. gabel la adesh el khaima i heard him calling me "dalooy ta3alay" i gave him the sadest look "mabi"
"ta3alay barakbech ta3alaay bas ana asoog feech"
"HEYAAAAA"
"hehehe walla mo9a7ya .. yalla ta3alay magdar 3ala za3alech"
"7amad .. magdar ag3ad warak ba6ni shkobra maykafe khal asoog bro7yy"
"t3arfen?"
"3alemnii"
"walla enich ga9a 3alay yalla rekbay"
i tried to bas ambaih am so heavy magedart as3ad "hahaha ambaihhh shelneee hahahaha"
"hahaha lateth7ekeeen lat6e7eeen"
"baas baaasss magdar arkaab hahaha"
"zain ne6ray ayeblich selaam"
i was laughing so hard 3ala shakli le darajat ba6ni gam y3awerni ouch! ,, yab daray sghayer 3ashan arkab! GOD ! "AKHERANN" 3alamni shasawe .. easy .. meshait o ga3da asma3a ysarekh "shway shwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay" besmela! mamdani 7a6et sub3e 3al banzen! "DAlyaaa redaaayyy" 7egarta o ga3adt a7oos .. ambaaaaaaaaaaaih wanasaaa .. he was runnig after me masken .. bas marra bel 3umer i rally enjoyed my time! "baasss ogfaaayy"
"hahahaha shaklik mu sij wenta tarketh waray"
"nezlay nezlay sij mu kafo a7ad ya36ech wayh" he was so pissed off
"shda3wa! yalla nazelni" dashet el khaimaa .. faj2a 7aset thahriii wayed y3awerni wayeeeeeeeedd o wayhe n9efag so khalty munera asked me "dalya fech shay?"
"khalty thahri wayed y3awerni"
"kela men halli rekabteh ta3alay ensad7ay shway .. kelesh mala da3eey" ooh! kaifi .. enseda7t o refa3t rele 3ala makhadaa .. ouch ouch y3aweerrr .. aby ared el baittt .. ambaih la2 la22 AYY! i called hamad "aloo"
"hamad aby ared el bait"
"shfeech!"
"thahrii y3awerni .. mani gadra"
"yalla yalla kani yaay"
dashet el toilet 3ala ma eyeb el sayara .. sheno hatha? chena blood? ! OMG .. i called mom "MAMAAAA DAM DAM" i freaked out!
"SHENO DAM SHFECH!"
"fee dam wardii fe dam"
"nezal menech dam??"
"Eeee eeeeeeeeeeeeee"
"weeeh 3adeey .. yalla enshalla lech 3 ayam o tolden"
"ya3ny mara7 olad bel bar?"
"hahahahaha laaaaaaaaa mo kon fa yakoonn .. ana wala mara nezal 3alay dam bas eli a3arfa eli yanzel 3aleha dam ya3ny 7erwat el 3 ayam o tolad .. khafef wala wayed?"
"la 7ada khafeef"
"weeh 3adey bas reday el bait erta7ay lata7arekeenn derebalich 3ala 7afedtyy"
"ok" sakarta bas mate6amant .. i told hamad he freaked out 2! he told khalty and she said nafs el 7achi eli galeta umi ... after saying goodbyes to evryone ,i called my cousin 3ndaha babya 3umrha 1 year .. "hii anwaar" i asked her o galatli "3ade ana nezal 3alay shwayya khafeef o wegaf 3ogob sbo3 waladt"
"ya3ny aro7 el 6abeeb wela la2?"
"et7esen eb 6alg?"
"ana shdarani sheno 6algg .. thahri y3awerniiii"
"hehe yro7 weyye wela thabit?"
"la lazeg feni mayfech"
"mmmm .. enshalla mako shay call ur doctor mala da3e tro7en" i called doctorty o galat nafs el shay .. bas i wonder what is 6alg? eeff .. that night i couldn's sleep well .. thahri thabe7nii .. o kint awaswes kel shway achayek etha fe dam wela la2! Morning .. zad el.blood .. chena am having my period! bas 3awar el thahar ra7 .. "saba7 el khair shlonich elyoom?"
"el7amdela a7san bas wayed dam!"
"taben awadech el 6abeeb?"
"la mako shay y3awernii"
"mmmm.. Enzain ana baro7 el shaleh etyen ma3ay wela awadech 3end umich?"
"la la baye ma3ak"
"akhaf tet3ebeen"
"mat3ab bayye ma3ak .. khal abadel degega" .. wesalna bel salama .. makan feni shay bas el blood kan eb habal! .. temashait shway ma3a 7amad then ra7 shaleh rab3a o ana ga3adt ma3a 7amolty .. after ghada thahri shab 3alay again!! 3awar mu sijj.. i was calling hamad mayred so i called his father .. "3ami ga3da adeg 3ala 7amad mayred wana wayed ta3bana mat3aref raqam a7ad menrab3a?"
"yabnayty 7amad 6ale3 7adag .. ashof yemken a7a9la" laa2! muwagta .. enshalla mako shay! .. la2 la2 khalas mugadra at7amal! o ga3da atwatar weenah! aby ared aby areeeddd .. sarat 6 o ahal 7amad be7adron men shaleh .. "ha dalya etyen ma3ana wela tan6eren raylech"
"la khalty baye ma3akum wayed ta3bana" madre shlon ta7amalt el 6ereej .. kanat el sa3a chenha yoom kamill .. wedi abchy bas maska roo7e .. etha lel7en kel hal 3awar mo 6alg bante7er! awal mawesalt bab sheqete ga3adt abchyy .. after 15 minutes he called "ha 7abebe shfeeech"
"waineek waineeek" i was crying .. really in pain
"rad min el shaleh shfeechh"
"wayed ta3bana aby aro7 el 6abeeb al7eeeeeeen yamdek twadeni wela akhali umi twadenii"
"la ne6ray sheno umich twadech rob3 sa3a wana 3endech" awal ma sakart el telephone khalty dashat o shafatni abchii "shfeech dalyaa shelle y3awrech"
"khalty thahri manigadraaa!"
"yroo7 wered?"
"laa emchaleeebbb mugadra ag3ad 3ala 7ailyyy"
"yuma deshay seb7ay eb may 7aar 3ala ma eye 7amad .. etha zad 3alech ya3ny 6alg wetha ra7 ya3ni mako ela el 3afyaa"
fachait el may o ga3adt 3ala el arth .. mugadra ogaff ..seba7t bser3a o re7t badalt o ga3adt an6er raylyy .. "haa dalooyyy" awal mashefta i started crying "ta3bana ta3banaaa"
"yalla 5 degayeg asba7 wawadech" laaaaaaaa2 ! ba3ad 5 degayeg ! magdar!! sekat madre shagooolll ayy ayy :~( .. after 5 minutes he came out mo metsabe7 wala embadel o he said "haa lel7en taben tro7en el 6abeeb?"
"ENTAA MEN SEJEEK! TA3BANAAAAAAAAAA TA3BANAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAA 3ABALIK GA3DA ACHATHEEEEBBB ! ANA AL7EEN AWADE 3UMRIIIIIII WALA MATHALETEEEEKKKK" I WAS EXTERMLY TIRED AND ANGRY! YESTA3BE6
he huged me and said "ana bas kent bat2akad ena min sijech hal mara ta3bana"
"HAMAD LATYANEENEEE BETWADENE WELA LAAAAAAAAAAA2" am sure ena 3yoni 6la3at men lesrakh "yalla thuwani thuwaniii walla bawadech"
"BAAS ESKET O DESH BADEEELLLLL YALLAAAAAAAA"
khalty fachat el baab "shfekum shfekuum"
"khaltyy *sobs* ana *sobs* mugadra at7amal *sobs*"
"yalla yalla al7en enwadech .. 7amad yoma yalla ebser3aa .. dalya nashfay sha3rech"
"magdar magdaarr" .. rekabna el sayara o hamad called mom o galaha ena ray7en el mustashfa .. awal ma wesalna 21.00 sa3edoni foog o 3a6aw shay 3ala ba6ni 3ashan yshofon fe 6alg wela la2 .. 7a6aw el jehaz o ashof mom tsawe chay! "hach sherbay"
"sheno hatha?" "darseeen sherbeh zain" "sharabta kela eb 1 second! .. i can feel contractions while the nerse saying ena mako shay! how come! a7es eb shay ghareb ga3ed yser 7ag ba6niii! yat el doctora el monawba o sawatli ba79 3ashan tshof cham santy mafto7a! o kan da yoom esweed! Aaaaaaahhh y3awer 3ama eb 3ainhaaaaaaa dafshaaa "malik umal 7ate3mele eeih bel weladaa!"
"entay dafsha! shway shwaaayy!" mu3ajebha ba3ad! wagta tkhare3ni hathyy! 7amad 3a9ab o zafha o gal maby hathy tdesh 3ala morty .. wagtek enta el thanii lol! tgol eni mafto7a 2 santi .. "erga3e el beet o ta3ali bokra"
"walla ma at7arak min mokaniii .. ba6niiiiiiii a7es eb taqalo9aat" the nerse said "mako shay habebtyyy"
"SHENO MAKO SHAY! I CAN FEEL IT" yat eta2akad ena el jehaz rakeb 3adel .. 7a6at edha wela tshof el contractions raqamhum 3aleey! "oh my god u r right maybe something was wrong with the machine!" la walla ! ela entay mu7a6eta 3adel malat 3aleech!! "escuse me sir" khathat 7amad o 6la3aw barra .. "nurse ta3alaayyy whats wronggg" elyahel eb ba6ni wet7achi sir! ahh kent em3a9ba 7ade yomhaa .. "7abebty benazlonich ghorfat el 3amaleyat" mom said! yummah ! 3amaleyat! sound scary!!! ga3adt abchyy "khalas hawant mabi olad" *Sobs*
"mara7 t7esen eb shay alla ysahel 3alech kelna waladna" I was excited but scared. now am sure am in labor.. ghorfat el 3amaleyat kanat wayed 7elwa! chena ghurfa 3adeya .. feha sereer .. flat tv .. qanafat 7ag 5 persons .. bathroom .. kan 7amad mawjod ,, his mom , mamaty , khalaty (moms sisters) yaw bel 12.00 7adhum mekhtar3en .. i felt love .. after about three hours my contractions were only five minutes apart .. makent rathya akheth shay .. i was screaming min el 3awar o kent khafya cuz my doctor lel7en mayat o el doctora el munaweba el khaysa yat ba6at may el baby .. min kether masarakht 7amad mesak el kamam o 7a6a gha9eb 3ala wayhy! 3ogobha khedarttttt .. etha ya el 6alg agoom wetha ra7 anam .. bas kint a7es eb soot sada moz3ej etha a7ad tekalam aw ta7arak .. faj2a yali 6alg o i was screaming chan ashof my doctor .. "aaaaaaaa ... laish ta2akhartaayyy"
"heheh kani 7abebty mafech ela el 3afyaaa" "haa meste3eedaa?" she was smiling o ambeh 7adha 7anona .. bas mu wagt sowalef! "plzz 6al3ehaaaa BAMOOOTTT AAAAAAAA" faj2a yat el nurse o 7a6atli drip "wakhraaaaaaay aaaaaaaa"
"dalya shofeeneee .. 7awlay tdezeen"
"ma3areeefff shloooooooooonnnn aaaa bamoott 6al3oohaaaa" :"( 7aset eni ga3da amot sij! kint shway daykha o madre shga3ed yseer bas eli a3arfa eni so in pain o aby el baby ye6la3 .. kent mu3arfa asawe push .. i tried maybe 7 times or more ma6la3at el babya .. "dalyaaa .. el baby wayed ta3bana 3afya sa3deeneee push push" i pushed so hard o ken fe 2 nurses 7a6en edhum 3ala ba6ni o wdezona le ta7aat OUCH! faj2a nemt! then i heard my baby crying bas min el ta3ab magedart afech 3yonii .. i felt ena 7amad was crying .. huging .. kissing my forehead ..
Finaly .. baby monira was born!
Wednesday 21 October 2009
Listen , Carefully!
كبرتني يا هم
.. دخيلك قول للدنيا أنا عمري الحقيقي كم ؟
كبرتني يا هم ..
تروح سنين من عمري
تضيع وما احد مهتم
ما عاد لي فيها أمل
.. هالدنيا هذي يوم عمري ذبل حلمي انقتل
.. فرحي غدا معدوم
ابعرف وش سبب حزني
.. ابعرف وش سبب لهموم
كثير احزان في الدنيا
.. سببها دعوة المظلوم
أمانه يللي سامعني
.. اذا اني ظلمتك يوم
تعال و قل مسامحني ..
ترى والله جفاني النوم
وحالي صار حالي غم
.. كأني ما دعتلي أم..
وكل ليلة تمر أقول
.. كبرتني يا هم
!أنا ما عشت ابد سني
.. ولا حسيت غير الآه
احس عمري رحل مني
.. واحلامي ارحلت وياه
زماني يروح ويذبحني
واعاني من التعب و القاه
واقول الله يعوضني
.. لي الجنــــه بإذن الله !
allah y3awethni... Dalloya :*
Monday 12 October 2009
Ghareba (24)
Trust issues in our marriage will eventually destroy it. how can i trust him! i feel that i dont know him anymore! illy sawah mu shwayya .. wel muskla ena maybayen eb 3aina , and when I ask him laish he cheated ygooi "MADRE ELSHE6AN GA9 3ALAY"! aah .. he's not honest, I know sometimes the truth hurts, but hiding it only makes it worse, he treats me right only when he's doing something wrong! even though qarar enah ra7 yetghayer .. ra7 ashek! it will probably be tough to trust him again..my pregnancy was wayed mut3eb .. o hal salfa khalatni karha kelshay .. if i wasnt pregnant chan radet bait ahalii .. i hated the fact that i am tired o jesmi ra7 yekhtereb 3ashan wa7ed mayestahal .. taghayart ,, sert ka2eba .. 7azena .. mag3edi momel .. ra7at el ebtesama men wayhy .. kela saktaa mali khelg wala shay ! few weeks later 6ala3 esmi bel jareda "wathefa fe wezara min elwzarat" .. re7t .. sheft el mokan .. mo nafs ma ana aby bas a7san men el ga3da bel baitt .. malal o qamta .. o elwzara yakhthon wa7da 7amel 3adey i was 3 months pregnant .. JUNE 2007 .. 3ogob mashtaghalt eb sbo3 7amad safar cause 3enda finals .. kint 7a6a eb bali "aked he'll cheat on me" bel6agag! shasawe ya3ny .. alla yahdeeh ..
kan wayed ydeg ytesharah .. lani makent as2al 3anna kether awal .. cuz mali khelga .. wala le khelg sotaa .. aby arta7 menah shway .. eldawam kan boring ,, nothing to do bel first week , 7ata maktab makan 3endi .. ba3den laman 3a6oni maktab sar el wath3 shwayya a7san .. 3endi net ,, kint a7es eni ray7a internet cafe mo dawam ,, min adesh len a6la3 wana emjabla el net .. ba3den shway shway bedet at3araf 3ala elli mawjodenn ,, hamad rad min maser .. kan esteqbali 7agga bared .. and he said " a7es hal marra mawalahtay 3alay" i smiled .. ee sij ,, mawalaht 3aleh! weird ! a7es mako masha3er tejaha .. ba6 chabdee.. so one day we had a fight
"ya3ny sheno elwa7ed mayghale6 getlich asef o taghayart o sert zain maybayen eb3ainech"
"embala ybayen .. bas khalas ma7es eni agdar atheq fek!"
"ya3ni shtabeni asawee SHTABENI ASAWE!"
"latsawe shay o raja2an lat9arekh tara mali khelg"
"OOH BEL6AGAG!" mmm .. maynon! el nejra kanat wayed a6wal men chethy bas ana khte9art'ha .. on july re7t maw3edii 3end el doctora .. i was 4 months pregnant .. o kent 7adi aby a3aref feni bnaya wela walad .. bas mabayan .. tgol el 7abel el sere bain el ryool! ana kint 7asa ena feni bint .. after 2 weeks min hal maw3ed re7t mustashfa el hadi .. kan ba6ni wayed y3awerni .. i went alone ..
"mafe shay 7abebty ,, everything is normal alhamdulella .. do u know whats ur babys sex?"
kan wayed ydeg ytesharah .. lani makent as2al 3anna kether awal .. cuz mali khelga .. wala le khelg sotaa .. aby arta7 menah shway .. eldawam kan boring ,, nothing to do bel first week , 7ata maktab makan 3endi .. ba3den laman 3a6oni maktab sar el wath3 shwayya a7san .. 3endi net ,, kint a7es eni ray7a internet cafe mo dawam ,, min adesh len a6la3 wana emjabla el net .. ba3den shway shway bedet at3araf 3ala elli mawjodenn ,, hamad rad min maser .. kan esteqbali 7agga bared .. and he said " a7es hal marra mawalahtay 3alay" i smiled .. ee sij ,, mawalaht 3aleh! weird ! a7es mako masha3er tejaha .. ba6 chabdee.. so one day we had a fight
"ya3ny sheno elwa7ed mayghale6 getlich asef o taghayart o sert zain maybayen eb3ainech"
"embala ybayen .. bas khalas ma7es eni agdar atheq fek!"
"ya3ni shtabeni asawee SHTABENI ASAWE!"
"latsawe shay o raja2an lat9arekh tara mali khelg"
"OOH BEL6AGAG!" mmm .. maynon! el nejra kanat wayed a6wal men chethy bas ana khte9art'ha .. on july re7t maw3edii 3end el doctora .. i was 4 months pregnant .. o kent 7adi aby a3aref feni bnaya wela walad .. bas mabayan .. tgol el 7abel el sere bain el ryool! ana kint 7asa ena feni bint .. after 2 weeks min hal maw3ed re7t mustashfa el hadi .. kan ba6ni wayed y3awerni .. i went alone ..
"mafe shay 7abebty ,, everything is normal alhamdulella .. do u know whats ur babys sex?"
"not yet"
"baby girl .. see" bnaya ? wakhtyy .. sheft el screan bas mafahamt shay! "i'll print it for u" wayed estanast enha ebnaya o 7aset ena 7amad mara7 yestanas wayed so hal shay wanasni zyada! can u blieve this ! .. re7t 7ag umi wel kashra men hni le hnaak .. "Yummaaaa tawa re7t el 6abeeb o galatli sheno ebba6ni"
"zain zain , ha bnaya wela sbay?"
"hach shofay el sonar yemken t3arfen?"
"ashof .. we sheno hatha thalma hehe"
"ee madre gelt yemken t3arfen hehe .. shetewaqe3ain?"
"mmmmm madre elli eye min alla 7ayah alla bas chanzain bnaya"
"eeeeeeee bnayaaa"
"SIJJJ .. *tears* el7amdella el7amdella ya7elo elbecher le 9arat bnaya wallaa" *kisses
"hehehe ee a7es cute"
"wanasaaa 7ag el nefanef wel shbabeee9"
"hahahah , yumma .. et'hagen 7amad ebyestanas wela ytheg khelga"
"waihh ! etha mastanas ma3enda salfa ma3alech mena"
"mm .. mara7 agola .. laman aro7 7ag doctorty agola eye ma3ay o as2alha ya3ny cheni lel7en madre .."
"ee a7san ba3ad"
2 Weeks later .. August .. kint bel shahar el khames .. ra7 weyay to the doctor laman dashena she said "enshalla hal marra ybayen .. ashoof .. mmmm .. mmm ..."
7amad kan ykhez el screen o ana kent akheza , since i know sheno feni kent aby ashof radat fe3la .. "mmm .. ya7leelhaa .. Bnayaa"
He had the biggest smile on his face "el7amdella" he seemed happy .. rekabna el sayara .. "dalya .. latgolen 7ag a7ad"
"laish?"
"bas a7san , akhaf 3aleha min el 3ain"
"baih shda3wa ! sheno ya3ny magol 7ag ahali?"
"la 3ade golay 7ag betkum bas baje ahalech mala da3e yadron"
"aha ok!"
"mo 3an bas la2anna ahalna ykheshon fa 7atan ana bakhesh"
"inzain kefkum .. bas lazem agol 7ag khaltyy"
6ab3an kel my family DARAW ,, lani fethe7a o 3ade 3ende agol bas kent agolhum jbal 7amad sawaw ro7kum matadroon .. when i told his mother kanat radat fe3elha barda she said "zain el7amdela" bedon eye contact o g3edat t7e6 sala6a .. staghrabt shal brood! so i told hamad o shsawa ! thani yoom 3al ghada he told her! o el kel kan ga3ed
"yuma , dalya tgol a7es ena umik mo mestansa lana feni bnaya" aby mawqef yfashel akthar men chethy! i blushed!
"laa bel 3aks ana a7eb el banatt o min 3ogob 7amad o okhoh kent aby banat bas alla marezagni wel7amdela 3ala kel 7al o entay shayfa ena khawaty aghlab thereyat'hum sbayan bel 3aks a7na n7eb el banat o nabi banatt o a7san ena ma7ad yadre .." min el feshela sara7a mathakar sheno radet 3aleha !.. ya7lelha she didnt ask me about ANYTHING .. kent astaghreb bas a7san .. el weird thing ena fe nas min ahala kelesh mo meyana ma3ay .. o malhum 7ag yes2elon .. yeg3edon ysa2loni sheno fech bnaya wela sbay .. le el sades kint ared madre bas ba3den 7amad galli "golelhum 7amad mayertha agol" so kint agolhum chethy.. and wain betsawen esteqbalich o kint ared "madre lel7en masheft" bas i was already emqarera eb royal 7ayat .. o maskena mama galatli ena she'll pay for everything .. awal shay marethet i want him to pay ba3den galatli ra7 az3al etha makhaleteni.. so i said ok ,, bas estaghrabt ena 7amad retha kelesh matwaqa3t .. at the end mama 7ayaty she paid for the hospital , my bed cover , hdom el esteqbal , el giveaways , sweet and chocolate .. EVERYTHING .. o ohwa maga6 shay! weird weeeirdd! ..
October 2007 .. 7amad qarar ysafer ma3a rab3a! "dam eni emyame3 flos o umich qarerat enha betekafal eb kelshay 3ayal basafer USA ma3a rab3e shahar 11"
"min sejek!"
"ee laish ana thayeg khelge menzeman mastanast! o enta lo tegderet tsafren chan safarna!"
"aah ! ok"
"shda3wa dalooy tara mayza3el"
"ra7 akon bel thamin 7amad! bala sar shay!"
"la enshalla mako ela elkhair ra7 ared gabel latdeshen el tase3"
GHAREB!!!
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Love u ALL o sorry 6awalt 3alekum ;*
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